summer vacation

eat, sleep
go out for a drink with friends
run errands with mom sometimes
go out with mom and dad from time to time
argue with them
get sour with them
take care of housework from time to time
and for the rest, let them wait on me
surf net
couldn't be more well-behaved and productive

contradictions pt. 2

- like to think of myself as anti-materialist (very indicative of how i am such a product of my liberal education) and yet still want to have enough money to satisfy all my "hobbies": good food, travel, etc.

- want to work for the community but always ignore others' opinions; those that are not close to me, i don't give a fuck what they think, and those that are close, well, i don't care either, because however they may find me, in the end, we would still be understanding and true to one another.

contradictions

- always accumulate for themselves, live selfishly and yet, always live in the fear of rumors and yield to others' judgment.

- go to temples and pray to the Buddha; Buddha teaches - at least this is what i think - not to be self-absorbed, not to avoid hardship in life, and to be detached to all wants, and yet they only pray for more wealth and more success

currently reading and listening

currently reading: Catch-22
Brilliant, hilarious, perceptive, ridiculous. I've laughed and cried so much. Full of absurd truths and truthful absurdities. Impossible to summarize all my thoughts.
most recent favorite quote: "anything [any country?] worth dying for is certainly worth living for."

currently listening: la chambre renversée. First saw it on TV5, just after a few seconds, i was like OMG this is so cute. Not sure if i'd have loved the song if i hadn't seen the clip. The images just fit so well with the music and the words. I'm not talking about the lyrics, but about the way the words sound. Together, they look like a children's story, a lot of imaginations, uninhibited with innocence and simplicity. Makes me feel like floating all day long while listening to the song.

middle class guilt pt. 2

Summer thunderstorm, the kind that you'd have to bend you back under its weight, heaven and earth white washed into one.
Inside:
Dad: And they still have to load the tailings under this rain and wind.
Mom: Yet they would never fall sick, unbelievable, while we who stay inside all the time would end up coughing non-stop.
Me:...
took out the camera, and didn't dare to use the flash and ended up with this.

the fight

went to my motorbike test with Luc (my car driving teacher)
I didn't need his help so i told myself that i wasn't doing anything wrong.
But there were a lot of eyesores, and i didn't dare to speak up once, cause i myself was an examinee and they could have failed me easily. How pathetic! Me, who shout Fight and Fight.
And even though under no circumstances would i seek for my teacher's "assistance," i didn't have the courage to tell him not to come with me, thought it'd offend him. Always shout Fight and Fight.

to-do wish list

work for a chocolatier
travel in Latin America
have a cafe, either a book cafe or a performing art one, or both
open a school with progressive teaching and learning ("pedagogy of the oppressed") for disadvantaged youth
work for a TV channel, something like Discovery, focused on travel, lifestyle, and culture (although there are a lot i'm not sure about, like the gap between the object exposed, the target audience, and of course the power of the language medium)
learn how to play a musical instrument
know well a style of dance
go parachuting/free-fall and bungee jumping
learn to swim well and go diving, surfing, wind surfing, water skiing
keep my English, improve my French, relearn Japanese, learn Spanish and Arabic
spend some time in Israel/Palestine