contradictions

- those who don't have access to running water, who have to ration their use, who treasure every single drop, would pay ten times more than those who can turn on the tap 24/7

- those who live next to electric dam or who were displaced by its construction would be the last to get electricity.

- those who would never kill stray animals, who observe strict vegetarianism, would still kill other human beings, people of other religions.

- those who are so devout that they would wage a war to triumph their religious conviction would blow up themselves and others during the holy month.

contradictions pt. 2

- like to think of myself as anti-materialist (very indicative of how i am such a product of my liberal education) and yet still want to have enough money to satisfy all my "hobbies": good food, travel, etc.

- want to work for the community but always ignore others' opinions; those that are not close to me, i don't give a fuck what they think, and those that are close, well, i don't care either, because however they may find me, in the end, we would still be understanding and true to one another.

contradictions

- always accumulate for themselves, live selfishly and yet, always live in the fear of rumors and yield to others' judgment.

- go to temples and pray to the Buddha; Buddha teaches - at least this is what i think - not to be self-absorbed, not to avoid hardship in life, and to be detached to all wants, and yet they only pray for more wealth and more success

the fight

went to my motorbike test with Luc (my car driving teacher)
I didn't need his help so i told myself that i wasn't doing anything wrong.
But there were a lot of eyesores, and i didn't dare to speak up once, cause i myself was an examinee and they could have failed me easily. How pathetic! Me, who shout Fight and Fight.
And even though under no circumstances would i seek for my teacher's "assistance," i didn't have the courage to tell him not to come with me, thought it'd offend him. Always shout Fight and Fight.